Michael anthony churchill

 

It isnt getting easier.I try and stay strong,But I cant.I cant do it and I dont care.I am not going to pretend I am happy when I am not.I replay those words that i promised to you..oh buddy.how do i live with the decision i made.I cant.It torments me every night and day.I miss you so much and I need you..that is so unfair,to need youwhen i couldnt even keep my word to you.

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oh my buddy.....every day you are here with me.it doesnt get any easier and especially around the holidays.I just wanted to give you this picture and send these hearts and flowers right up to you sweetie.My only prayers every day is for you to be okay ,safe and to have god watch over you and make you happy and not to be alone.I know it was an accident and i dont blame you nor do i blame anyone.I am just thankful that I was able to tell youevery day how much i loved you and how much you were my buddy.miss hanging out with you.but i still do in thought.big hugs honey. love mom

    hey sweetie, I will be updateing your page soon.But right now its still hard for me to even write that your gone.not a moment goes by that you are not in my prayers and thoughts.You had such an impact on my life.with you gone,its like a part of me is lost.I know someday I will be found again by you.Until than,all I can do is to keep praying and keep your memories alive always.You were very mischief but your heart was filled with love.you cared.and you were always there for me when I needed you.as you still are.My prayers go out to all that has been affected by your death as well.I am not calling it death.I will call it a new beginning fo ryou.You are alive now baby.No pain,no hurt.no looking over your shoulders.not being confused about what is right and what is wrong.You are loved here as well as in heaven.give big papa and nana a hug for me please.and I ask them to give you one from me as well.love mom

I want to say I am sorry for being numb.I cannot hide how I feel.Nor do I want to.I know what I feel like.and I so wish I could take away all  your pain as well.because noone should feel the way we do.Mikey filled all of our hearts with love and happiness.as well as his rebellious side.but that was him.He was his own individual and he loved us all.as we loved him.and yes,time goes on,and we shall smile,but its funny how we can all look at each other and see that flicker of loss in each others eyes.But know,mikey is always with us and we are always with him....

Mikey.it seems like yesturday.I wish it was yesturday.I would have changed so many things.

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To the Collins Family,

I am a friend of Amanda's.  I only met her within this past year but remember hearing of her brother's passing while at the race track last year.  I remember my heart sinking, thinking about another family enduring what our family had to in 2005.  My heart goes out to you.. Although I did not know Mikey personally, I can only imagine how special of a person he must have been given the outpouring of love and support you all have.  I know that "anniversaries" are extremely tough ~ we have found that celebrating our loved one's life on these days make them a little more tolerable.  Mikey lives on in your hearts and in everything you do each and every day.  My thoughts are with you on these upcoming days. 

 

~ Kendra Smith 

 

Ellen,

I know that your heart is breaking as Mother's Day approaches. I wish I had an answer to all of this; it still doesn't seem real to me.  At times, I have to force myself to look at pictures of Andrew's car on the night of his accident. It literally split into two pieces.  Then it makes me sick to wonder if he knew what was about to happen.  As mothers who have lost children, we all share a bond, one that I'm sure we'd rather not have, but it's there, it's real and the support does help.  I wish you a great day on Sunday and hope that Mickey will send you a special sign from Heaven.  Take care and May God Bless you always........Debi Collins